So Cleverly Poem by Melissa Joy Chesky

So blind
So blind-sighted
By the person you were trying so cleverly to hide
I’m fed up with me
Yes—not you, ME.
How ironic.
I’d sacrifice, and give, and bleed until my wells are bare
But for one ounce of give on your end?
No, not a single budge
Your cleverly armored shield stays hold.
If only I took the advice while I could
If I wasn’t so BLINDED by the brightness you set within me
You set me on fire
And I think I liked it until your burn reached its peak.
So cleverly
You wielded your way throughout my heart
Threading your way through my soul—my veins;
What I thought was the adrenaline alit was weeds and falsities
Growing and weaving
While my heart unknowingly keeps throbbing and beating
Suffocating
Thinking the high is from joy instead of the lack of life
The tightening of translucent threads
And, after all you dragged me through
I'm fed up with you, finally
Yes—not me, YOU.
So cleverly
You tricked my heart.
So cleverly
You made me feel.
So cleverly
You made me learn better next time.