Some Time Ago... Poem by Sharon Smith

How am I to say this without sounding discontent
How can I change my understanding after all this Time's been spent
How can I see You any differently..than how I've known You from birth
How can I let go of these mysteries..that are way above the earth?

Why do You want to change this..it has been this way all my life
Not that I'm unappreciative..but my mind is all in strife
You are You..and the mystery that surrounds You..is all I know from here
Yes..I am afraid Lord..what if I feel differently..this I fear

One of the awesome sides of You..are the mysteries that surround
What if I feel differently after the answer that is found
What if it lessens my awe for You..oh this I could not bare
Maybe We can just leave this Lord..You REALLY don't have to share

Oh..but I can't stop it now..Your Answers flow in fast
What if this changes my mind Lord..what if my awe won't last
The mystery gone..I hold my breath..silence..my soul does grieve..
But just for a moment..in this we call Time..then the sadness takes its leave..

Oh..HOW AWESOME You are my Friend..my mind spinning..my soul elates..
You have opened doors..windows in view..awesomeness through heaven's gate
Grasping at Words that flow through my head..grief dissolved when crossing with You
How awesome that you are My Lord..saying..'Your soul already knew'