Someday... Alone Poem by Merille Molina

Someday I might be left
Living all alone
But before that I'll make sure
That I'm ready to be hurt

'Cause being alone means
Left by everyone around
And I know it might be
The acquisition of the truth

Paradigms of life
Meanings of these lines
Negative thoughts keep rushing
Rushing into my conscious mind

I hate the way I feel
The way everybody makes me feel
Being alone, left trashed
And it seems I have to rush

Rushing to be happy
trying not to feel empty
It sucks that somebody
Is always neglecting me

I keep shutting my mouth
But deep inside I wanna shout
All that I feel
The feeling of hurt and pain

Which is really better?
Being alone, feeling empty
Or being being happy with someone
At the end would hurt me?

Alone, the safest way not to be hurt
But am I really not that hurt?
Contentment, the safest way not to assume
But why do I keep on wishing in the sky so blue?

It seems that I'm confused
With the ironies the life goes
But I know I must be ready
If everybody would left me

Someday... that someday...
I might be alone
But I hope someone could save me..
Save me from from this world so empty...