Someone I Never Had Poem by Heather Cooper

I look around, I don't see you,
What do I do to find you inside myself? When I dream
About you it's like heaven, but with my soul looking for you
To keep me alive until you run off again and I am on the
Edge of dying without you there, but it's not fair
That I am in the air, and you're there, while I am jumping
Out of a plane for you; until the day comes where it will be the
Other way around, for me this is miserable, but
For you it's all fun and games until you get hurt and come
Running back to me, then comes the question will I reject or love you,
So you tell me you changed for the better, or will I have to challenge myself to help
You stay alive, and then I die. You mourn all you want,
But it's still the same and you try and try again
And yet you fail, like I did when I loved you and when
I went looking for you and died trying, but I will never be
In your debt to give my life to someone ungrateful;
The idea is that I will not let you take something that was never
Your's to begin with.