Something To Ponder Poem by Christal Carpenter

forgive the wind the blows through your hair
for tomorrow it may not be there
and when the air is gone and you struggle to take one last breath
and your lungs start to fall
you just want to scream
where were you when I stared this all

I can feel my eyes shut so tight
like the world slowly turned out the light
my life is quietly spinning
and through gritted teeth I am grinning
and I wonder want I 'm living for
I wonder what I'm writing for
I don't want to die
I just want to figure out why
why everything is how it is
why this all begins