Stiff Like Steel With Nothing To Feel...Or Fear Poem by RIC BASTASA

i am not
doing what i am
supposed to do
today

i am simply flowing
with the tide of
time

i let myself be taken
where it is heading
feeling like a leaf
fallen and nothing

somehow it is giving me
that feeling of this lightness
of my being
where i am no longer in
control

i can control this i know
i can stop whenever i want to
but no i will allow this tide
of time to take me where it
wants to

i just want to know if time
too is responsible for my future
for what happens next
whether i grow or shrink

i feel happy sometimes
when i am no longer in control
for whatever happens
i have always someone to blame
and i am not responsible

but this will be only for a moment
a break of my hard days
a little gift of surrender

let me be weak today for you
must know
i have been strong for all those
years

and you get bored with strength
stiff like steel
with nothing to feel.