Tasting My Death Poem by sahar alameddine

death is whispering into my ears again
as i'm walkin with this blank picture in my head
no more feelings no more sensations
i'm living this lie almost dead.

every time i close my eyes i see this darkness fulfilling my life
and everytime i sleep i only feel this wound hurtin me so deep
breathing without knowing the goal of being alive
but the joke is that i should continue living this lie.

this hope of someone will take me up to there
and the rythme of my heart for stopping will prepare
finally the land will hug my peacefull body
and it will be the end of this dramatic story.

wasting all my tears weeping on my destiny
it was always me and i keep on blaming the others
i was born cryin but now i'm sayin goodbye smilin
escapin this fate and renounced from this misery.

as i'm holdin the key of my desire
my heart's beats became higher
and that red thing became so free to run
reachin the floor holding my gun.

that person is standin upon my head
starin at me completely dead
he held my hand and took my soul
i couldnt say a word i ddnt have a role.

now i've went to somewhere else
where i dnt knw anyone i dnt have friends
i'm afraid as i used to be again
but i did wrote my own will with my own pen.

suddenly i figured out that it was only an annoyin dream
i woke up cryin regretting everything i didnt heal
i've hurt myself i didn't even try to fix things
but now i'll reach my highest dreams even if i dnt have wings