The Black Flower Poem by Nishant Rawlley

I thought you loved me,
I always did,
You had convinced me so,
But now,
As much as i try,
I cannot convince myself again,
But you, take it from me,
I had loved you,
Maybe i still love you,
I had fallen into love,
I had committed an entire life to you,
And you knew it all the way,
I dunno what to say,
My heart still beleives in that innocent smile of yours,
It still beleives in those dreams we dreamt together,
It still beleives in the truth of your eyes,
Wants to beleive that everything'll be alright,
That you loved me and that,
It was no fault of yours,
Never wants to say a word against you,
Again thats how deeply i love/d you,
,
(i dunno which one applies, though i wish the latter did) ,
I wish you hadn't chosen me for the prank,
I wish i forget everything as easily as you did,
And here i was, thinking that you'll be faring worse than i was,
Funny, isn't it?

But still i cry,
I still shed tears,
Simply in the timeless memory,
Of the beautiful times you gave me,
Yeah i had lived an entire life in those six months,
I cannot deny,

But didn't we promise to spend our entire lives,
Together?
Those dreams? Those promises?
That feel of your hand against mine, that completed me?
I thought, we meant them,
You did mention about our uncertain future,
And i had promised to take care of it all,
Alas, i was never even given a chance,
Maybe i still have a few regrets,
A few unrealised plans,
I had never thought, my sincere love,
Deserted such a ruthless, abrupt end,
Where i wasn't even granted our one last talk,
Yeah i regret a lot of it,
I had seen a perfect partner in you,
They say i'm acting stupid,
My head does say its time to move on,
The heart questions, Can you really?
Tell me how do i forget you,
Who's connected to every little element, every breath of mine,

I dunno what lies ahead for me,
The show called life must go on,
I guess i should just beleive in him and go on,
Go on, not move on,
That might take some time,
But i won't stop,
Though i still repeat,
It should not have happened,
Right when i had barely
Learnt to live without someone,
You came, stayed and then left me with a fresh new wound,
Anyways thats all for me, you have a good life ahead,
You're a good person.
I can't say i love you anymore,
But i do have residual love for you in my heart,
Thats all i can say,
Take care...