The Curious Case Of Bitter Brave Poem by Maria Sudibyo

I don't live for everybody's happiness
I don't live for everybody's word
I don't live for everybody's expectation

I hate to wait, I hate to move away
I hate to lose, I hate to try hard

I don't live in everybody's imagination
I don't live in everybody's world
I don't live in everybody's promise

no chain against my will
I want to walk with my own feet
want to talk with my mouth
want to see, to hear, to feel with all senses

I don't have my breath
I don't have my body
I don't have my soul

I don't know how long my heart beats last
but I want to keep little of my mind
little of sweet memory
little hope for myself