The Curse Poem by Kitty Marie Lucas

I go back to my home
where I never belonged
but never let go
and I am far beyond familiar with this street of simple houses
I remember it well
I've lived in each

always the shade they loved in secret
when will I see the light?
how can I feel so sure of myself
when everybody else is right?
if I can see that far ahead
it's in the past tense
as I stand
helpless
powerless
if I can see that far ahead
it's in the past tense
the curse
I'm always right

I go about my work
the good girl, the safe one, alone
saying I am not responsible to figure out your messes
but I might as well
if it's up to me

always the shade they loved in secret
when will I see the light?
how can I feel so sure of myself
when everybody else is right?
if I can see that far ahead
it's in the past tense
as I stand
helpless
powerless
if I can see that far ahead
it's in the past tense
the curse
I'm always right

I go back to my cage
watching visions of us
as your resolve fails
and I am sick and tired of carrying the weight of two of us
but I never say die
swore I'd never leave
and I can take more hurt than anybody knows
so if you have to strike
it's better it's me
if your words destroy mine
it's not a big thing

always the shade they loved in secret
when will I see the light?
how can I feel so sure of myself
when everybody else is right?
if I can see that far ahead
it's in the past tense
as I stand
helpless for you
powerless
if I can see that far ahead
it's in the past tense
the curse
I'm always right