The Darkness Inside Me Poem by Timothy hopkins

Tears fall like raindrops
From a soul filed with fear
Fear of darkness within
Both far and so near
Darkness shrouded
By a smiling face
Living in turmoil
This pain that I face
Granting the pain
To do its dark deed
My body and mind
Succumb to its greed
It takes me down deeper
To fear and shame
Depths I cant fathom
As I feel its dark reign
Life as I know it
May soon cease to be
For the pain that laid dormant
Is now free in me
It ravages corners
And every inch of my soul
It tares me to shreds
With a heart black as coal
This pain is alive
I can feel it within
My spirit not wiling
To try to stop it again
I give in to pleasure
That is twisted and dark
This pain that's within
Will soon leave its mark
The mark it leaves
Will be what it does crave
The mark of my tombstone
As I lay in my grave
In this grave of my doing
That I chose to be
For allowing this torture
To fester in me
Life holds no meaning
When hate fear and pain
Are seething inside you
With no good to gain
So come now the sickness
That I crave
And swallow my body
Within your dark grave
Don't cry for me
As I lay now in peace
That in life was not found
I hold no more fear
No pain or no hate
I lay still in victory
With death as my mate
Crying no more
For my tears are now dried
As I lay in the darkness
That I lived with inside
My soul is not hurting
My soul is not hurting
My fear is now gone
As my life of a new dawn
A dawn of beginning
Of a new shining sun
Only seen by the departed
Of which I am now one