The Fire In The Word Poem by CHIOMA ONYEKABA

I could have waited
But i was impatient
now i've eaten the fruit
Of course it's no good
Nothing else remains than to pay
It's the only way to stay

I've awaken the devil in me
And alongside the Angel in me
Now this lions roar for revenge
cuz i've felt and tasted it's breath.

I took decisions
Hard decisions
Just to get this unquenchable fire
Quenched this once of its desire
24weeks and a day
All gone and past away
yet no hope
Not even a single show
No one to assure me i'm loved
Not a mere shoulder to lean on.

Surprising as it seems
When the lights get dim
Out of many no one to choose
But you.

Is it late?
Should i wait?
Or go ahead and damn the consequences?
or rather hold on to fate and decency

Wait a minute!
Do i really mean it?
Thought i made up my mind on something?
Can i surely give up everything?
Why then do i go back on my words?
Myself i blame not
Do not blame me for us
Blame nature, the world and love
That has made me love you so
deeply that i can't let go.

I know you were pretending
But it's time to amend things
Of course you still care
All i need do is dare
I wish i could still keep the fire burning
Even if heaven starts descending
But then you are just filled with fear
Fear of the unknown you bear.

You feared it wouldn't show
Lest everything blows
You wish you could just shut
All those quiet gestures of yours,
Well sorry it's too late
I know whom my place takes
I know who was before me
And after me
I know who in my interest bears my treasure
And i know who in hate seeks it to devour.

All whom you have pleasure given
Shall never again try to resist
But not withstanding all these
I'll still care and seek peace
For the fire in the word
Is greater than the fire in Your eyes.