The First Happy One Poem by Marissa Hollis

I have decided to change.
Starting now.
No more saddness.
No more worry.
Just me,
and him,
together.

Why start drama when there is no need?
Like he said,
' I haven't done anything to lose your trust, '
Exactly, my love.
That is music to my ears.

It's time to start out
fresh,
new,
Time to take the time to
smell the sweet flowers
of life.
It's time to be reborn.

No more hiding out in my room
just because I don't want to see
anyone.

No more worrying about
whether he is cheating
or not.
The guilt
would force him to
truthfully speak.

I am going to try my hardest
to be happy.
To break this curse
most just call
depression.

I am ready for the challenge.
Yes, I admit,
It will be a challenge.
Our relationship is too
valuable to
ruin our bond of
love,
because of my
instability.

Thinking of this new me
makes me feel a bright
future arising,

The time has come

To. Be. Happy.
-moti 8-19-09