The Gamble Poem by Janet Willemien Mulligan

I wish I could say it's all or nothing
Just to save myself from bluffing;
Behind a hand dealt to me
Is the story I fight to break free
From the prison enslaving me.
I wish I could say goodbye to you
So I save myself from going through
A loss from which I try to save face,
But refuse to let my heart go to waste.
I wish I could say I care for you
Before you move on to something new.
Though fear prevents me from seeing
Nothing but tales will have me believing.
I wish I could say I trust what I feel.
I wish I could say that love wasn't real.