The Last Night Out Poem by Ashish Sharda

this is special as it was my 1st attempt to write a poem...


i remember that nite,
the nite we went out,
it was magical, the feel was out of this world,
i remember u, wearing a gown, just as an angel,
as white as snow,
as shiny as a rain dropp falling with usn behind,
i was standing with my mouth open,
when got hold of myself,
oh! ! ur gorgeous, never felt that before,
when u were walking down the streeet, the boys looking at u were just getting lost in u,
when i felt jealous and took u away,
u laughed, oh! ! ur smile just took my heart,

on that very moment i realised, ur the 1, the 1 with whom i will spend my whole life,
but i was patient, patient to wait and see what happen late,
i knew u for abt a year, but never knew abt this side of urs, never felt this way about u,
i adjusted my tie, trying to look good, to be as good as to be able to stand by u,
u came near........near and came very close to me,
u ran ur arms through my suit, adjusting my collar,

u turned, ur long hairs went through my face, saneding me into another world of mine,

now we going inside of the restaurant, ur right hand by my left,
we took a table and odered a wine,
i kept ant eyes on u, u blushed,
but i kept gazing,

u started the talk, wenting form ur day to the night before,
i didn't say a word,
not untill i realised that we were not alone but between many,
i gave a smile and u reurned,

the nite was growing darker and darker by every moment,

i gave u a wierd look, as i wanted to say something, wanted to say ' i love u '
but couldn't,

then the food was served, it was good, all ur favourite,
the rice by ur side and chinese by mine,

u took the note of the things, what were happening around, and then looked at me,
i thought u may doubdt my intentions, as u know for what i have brought u here,
but that was not the case,

it was 11 by now, we were walking towards ur house,
i looked at u with that same wierd look,

i decided to say it now, but how? ? ?
what if u say no? ?
what if u rejects me? ?
what if................? ?
i will loose u? ?
all these thoughts sorrounded me,

but i have to say it, today or day after,
i can't see u going with some other person,

ur house was near, i can see it,
it's now or never,

i gathered all the strengh that i could,
i told u to stop, u stoped and looked straight into my eyes as u were knowing what will going to happen,
just as u were knowing what i was going to say,

i said'hay! ! soniye i want to say something' and then stopped for a moment,

u kept looking in my eyes as u were waiting for it,

then i said with a heavy heart hoping to be rejected, ' i love u,
will u marry me,
will u be the 1 with whom i wish to spend my life,
will u be the 1 with whom i wish to build my home,
the 1 i wish to die with,

u smilled and start walking,
my heart sunk as such my death is neaer,

then u stopped and said, ' are u staying there the whole night or u are coming with me'

my heart filled with joy and pleasure,
i ranned to u and asked u again,
u cried and hugged me, i never had this feeling before,
for whole min we were standing there with our arms around each other,
then u kissed me and said, 'what took u so long, stupid'

i smilled but didn't say anything,

then we started walking again,
discussing something i don't remember,

a road cross is ur house,

my heart sunked again but don't know why,
i don't want to let u go, but have to,

i said'is this neccessory for e to go, can't we just stand here itselffor whole night,

u smilled and start walking towards ur house,
i grabbed u by ur arm and pulled u towards me and ask, 'do u love me'.

u siad, 'more than myself'
and start walking, i was gazing at u,

don' know after that, but why? ?
may be i don't want to, but i must,
forcing my nerves, igot into that time again,

u were passing the road when that happened, that changed my life forever,

a car was passing by,
it was coming towards u,
no.it can't be, i can't loose u like this, i will not let this happen,

i ran.....ranned as hard as i can,
but can't do anything,

the car passedby, leaving u in a blood bath,

i was lying next to u, unable to move,
u looked at me for the last time, with eyes full of hope and love,
i closed ur eyes to be closed forever,

a scream went through my throat,
may be i'm responsible, i could have saved u,
may be.............................

may be.............the words that haunts me even years after that night,

i'm lying on a hospital wing,
tryng to forget that nite, but don't willing to,
because that night was most beautiful and the sorrowest night of my life,

and a note for everybody who read this,
never let ur love go, do what ever u can to get her
and never ever let these two words, 'may be' have any room in ur life......................