The Ocean Of Desire Poem by Natasa To

I stood where the sky bled into the sea,
With a thousand unspoken wishes inside me.
The waves clawed the shore like a desperate plea,
And the ocean whispered, "Come drown with me."

I wanted the fire, I wanted the flame,
I wanted the sweetness that came with the pain.
I reached for the stars, tore my hands on the night,
And called it love when it swallowed my light.

Oh, the ocean of desire—how cruelly it calls,
With heaven above and hell in its walls.
It promises everything, then takes even more,
Leaving you shattered on a salt-bitten shore.

I drank from its waters, though bitter they burned,
Chased every feeling for which my soul yearned.
The closer I came to the dreams in its deep,
The more of myself I had buried beneath.

And there, in the darkness, I saw what I'd lost—
The innocence drowned, the unbearable cost.
I screamed at the waves, "What more can you take? 
How much of my heart must you shatter and break? "

But the ocean said nothing. It swallowed my cries.
It fed on my hunger, my truth, and my lies.
For desire is merciless—it gives you a spark,
Then teaches you how to make homes in the dark.

I wanted to leave, but I longed to return,
To the touch that destroyed me, the fire that burned.
My reason said, "Run! "—my heart said, "Stay! "
And I drowned a little more with each passing day.

Perhaps that is madness, perhaps that is fate—
To crave what consumes you, to love what you hate.
To stand at the edge with your soul in the tide,
And beg for the very thing that leaves you to die.

Now the moon hangs broken on waters of blue,
And the waves bring back pieces of all that I knew.
I have nothing to offer, no strength left to hide,
Just a heart full of storms and a soul stripped of pride.

Yet if you ask me what haunts me the most,
It's not the dark waters, nor the dreams like ghosts.
It's knowing that somewhere, beneath all that pain,
I'd dive into that ocean and drown all again.