The Opaqueness Of Autumn Poem by Somnath DasGupta

Autumn was always so confusing for me
sitting down near the window
sipping that hot cup of coffee
and staring that colourful rainbow
suddenly I saw a drop of rain crawling down my window
a small drop of first rain of the autumn
the first welcome note of the chilly winter
looked deep into it and I thought about everything in my life
is fading away like this drop of water.

I realised somehow have now a problem in recollecting that beautiful face
even your face opaques away from the realms of my memory
as this change in season brings a thought in my mind about change
change,
the habits of the day and the night
in which was also a habit of meeting you everyday
change
the way I have been looking at the life
and now how the life looks back at me
change
the way I use to smile at the life
also the way you use to smile at me.

the sweet chilly wind just blew by
it just touched and left a feeling and passed on
like your messages, your thoughts use to come
touch me, make me smile, bring the anger out of me
but use to bring thoughts of you
somehow I use to remember the melody of your voice too

one day even I thought to keep your voice in a paper and pin it to my diary
like some people keep that beautiful dry leaf of autumn in their diary
or those wings of butterfly which kids keep in their photo album or scrap book.

you asking those questions in your voice
and while asking your smile that reached up to your eyes
and while saying a word 'CO' your lips use to become round like those big keyring but with beautiful expressions.

suddenly the rain have started
do you remember the rain we ran and hide in the roof
and instead of came in storm of your words and questions
the similarity both the rain had some similar sweet fragrance
your words and these water
I think they both know how to bring fragrance of thoughts

Autumn I will never understand this season
a potpourri of everything rain, chilly winter
beauty, falling of leaves
same as you, your words, your silence
your thoughts
remains a mystery