The Outsider Inside Poem by CHRISTOPHER MUDIENYI

I am here but here, I do not belong,
I have been here and it's been long,
It's been long but here, I don't belong,
I have been here and hiding for so long,
I know am an outsider,
They think am an insider,
I am an outsider on the inside,
I am actually an insider on the outside,
They think it doesn't matter,
But to me it does matter,
When will they ever understand?
That they have to let me stand,
I don't, I do not really understand,
Why? Just why they can't understand,
This I can no longer stand,
Could it be better to be an intruder?
To intrude inside and never be an outsider!
So that I can feel that of the insider,
Because I am the inside outsider,
Or is it the outside insider?