I said out loud for the first time ever, I want to deface a car. I wanted other things too, as it happened - the things I wanted were so specific.
You see I was looking at the bodies all day. The unrolling skins of the politicians. Due to recent developments I could see every pore, and a moistness at the corner of the eyes.
I thought I would like to make that moistness.
The speaker of the house came on, I thought I want to forcibly remove every piece of beard from your body.
The counselor to the president came on, I thought I am going to unbend you like a Barbie knee, until you make that creak.
These were new thoughts. Before, it had always been myself that I imagined: slashed to ribbons, pressed to the griddle, spinning on the tip of a sword. Peeled like a grape for a haunted house.