I want to cry but the tears won't come,
I fake a smile, but inside I'm numb.
Somehow sadness is my life,
Even that's hanging on the edge of a knife.
Happiness all washed away,
The rainbow muted to an array of grey,
Passion gone, a static applause,
I long to be who i once was.
No one cares is what hurts the most,
Forgotten by the ones i once held so close.
Too much of a burden, too much of a bore,
I've become nothing more then a chore.
Gone from adored to ignored.
I didn't ask for any of this,
I'd still be me, given the opportunity.
I want to cry, to let it out,
I'm not sure what this is all about.
I've no shoulder to cry on, everyone's gone.
My family are frauds, my friends now strangers,
I should of never let people in i knew the dangers.
Everyone by my side until i really needed them,
Their reaction, reject then condemn.
They can not see I'm unwell,
They can not see my privet hell.
No one understands,
Just a tsunami of demands.
Spiraling down, there's no way out,
I look for help but no one's about,
I don't know how i got like this,
Happiness has always been my biggest wish.
I need to cry but the tears won't come,
I can't fake a smile, inside I'm too numb.
Sadness was my life,
Until i found a knife,
All the pain washed away,
Red now splattered over the grey.
Just silence now, no applause,
I lost all hope of being who i once was.
No more tears, no more pain,
Finally at peace again.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
This is absolutely beautiful incredibly sad at the same time. I live with chronic illness. 😢