The Truth Of My Pain Poem by Samantha Gaona

I love you so much it's blinding,
my past, is slowly unwinding,
My love for you I cannot contain,
my smile can no longer hide the pain,
I love you so much it pains me,
your love is enough to change me,
my love for you feels so true,
when you are gone I don't know what to do.
I swear I've had this feeling once before,
and I have yearned for the feeling once more,
My love may seem so small and mere,
but you can feel it anytime you come near,
The demons of love and hate mix inside my soul,
they are so fierce, I fear I may not keep control,
The ghosts of my past have come back to haunt me,
to show what past love has brought me,
but I want to grab your hand and let you teach me to be free,
I want to kiss your tender lips of lust,
but I want to disarm you of my trust,
I want to feel your heart beat near me no longer,
but I want to feel you heart beat with mine stronger and stronger,
I want to see your eyes filled with your want, slowly churning,
but I want to fill you heart with my hate slowly burning,
I want to show you the part of me running from pain,
but I want to see your own soul running in shame,
I want to keep you yearning for more of my spell,
but I want to make sure you are always well.
My love, it is impossible for me to love you without hate,
because the one before you has already cast your fate,
My love you have to see,
I have been stripped of the real me.
I am slowly drowning in your love,
reaching out to he who once had all of my trust,
avoiding your hand for all of it's worth,
avoiding your hand to protect you from hurt,
Save me one last time if you will,
before I can save your heart from the accidental kill,
I will be forever sorry,
for sending your love out on a quarry,
but the decision is mine,
and soon I will find you once more in time,
with fire and ice my emotions mix,
while here with me, is a broken heart awaiting your fix.