The Un-Named Poem by May Speak

There's this weakness in me
That I just cannot see
And it hides and it hungers
And it yearns to be free.

There's this thing that I felt when I first saw your face,
It was like lightning had struck inside my safe space
And that night that we kissed,
I could just not forget,
The smile on your face when we shook hands and met.

Then like THAT you were gone
And my heart broke in two
And I sat up for days wondering when I'd see you.

And when my mind finally accepted that you had forgotten about me,
I met someone else, someone who became special to me

And though it had only been two weeks, I felt I'd known him all my life…..
And then you walked through the door a
And it stung like a knife.

After so many weeks, I finally got to see you again,
And it hit me immediately that I was not with you but with him.

I still think of you often when he's not around
And I see your smile in my head when he sometimes tends to make me frown.
I still hear your k@k laugh in the back of my head.
God, I sound like someone who's reminiscing over the dead. 

I don't know where you are.
I seldom wonder who you are with.
The only thought that sometimes crosses my mind,
Is, just SOME days……"What If? "

But I suppose I should stop wondering.
Chances are you don't do the same.
So I've decided to get it all off my chest,
In a poem dedicated to you without mentioning your name.

This is the last time I will think of you
And what we never were.
The last time that I imagine you…WISH
That you were here.

I accept that you were never mine and I was never yours.
Goodbye,sweet friend of mine though you never were my friend.
I fear no more to say these words….alas, Good bye.

The End.