This Confusion Poem by Evevona Plummer

These four walls closing in on me, I feel so confuse and alone.
Fighting those lies with no defense for me and my heart.
My distorted illusions of what should be or what could have been.
These eyes blinded by love or should I say lust.
Where should I be?
Blurred visions of my heart, our love, our goals, our plans.
We have no plans, no goals, no love, and no loving heart.
I'm not trying to get us right back to where we was at start.
These tears I have washes the pain in my eyes, but my mind doesn't understand.The reasons I cry?
My friends? My enemies?
My heart can't tell who or what is going on with me only God.
Through all we go through my heart wants to scream, but pride keeps me silent. Success is my desire fear is my indictment.
Family forgive me for my failure. All I can feel is,
Distorted
Delusional
Emotional
Emotionless
Self hate
Self love
No direction
Distressed
God help me
Please
This Confusion
Why?