Depression is a sickness I possess deep within my soul.
The cause of this depression I don't really know.
It cause such great pain to all those that I hold dear.
When it takes over it consumes me like my greatest fear.
It keeps others out, although they see me, like looking through a screen.
It masks who I truly am, the person I want others to see.
If I could find a way to rid myself from this despair,
All of you would see how much I really care.
For me the easiest thing is just to run away,
Because deep down I can't find the words that I should say.
The words that describe this sickness that has ruined the love I try to give.
The words I could say so that you could forgive.
I'm sorry just seems so vague, it does not hit very deep.
It makes me feel and seem that I am actually weak.
To deal with something this great I have to be strong.
That's why I guess I have been hiding who I am for so long.
Hiding in actuality is a weakness,
But to hide my feelings leaves others out,
And that is what keeps me from falling down.
Building walls is what I'm good at; although it's true I share so much of how I feel,
However, when I share those things I leave out many details.
You may think you can read me, that I'm open like a book,
But all you have touched is the cover; you haven't been able to have a look.
A look into the darkness of who this sickness has made me,
a look at this spoiled soul, rotten and decaying.
I am destroyed from things past and present that you can't ever know,
How long will I have to fight, how far will I have to go?
Depression is this sickness I am speaking of, that has rotted out my soul,
I want more room to Love, but no one understands I have reached a limit of how far I could go.
A limit that I can't seem to pass, despite of how I have tried,
a limit that keeps me here and I will always continue to hide.
This depressions getting stronger, I want it no longer.
I want to be like that bird and soar, this is a depression I will own no more.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem