Thought Poem Poem by Lily Black

TW: mention of rape, sexual assult

f: How could he do this to me?

m: I couldn't do that to her.

f: Over something so small?

m: Just like I can't tell her the truth.

f: Or was this just a way out?

m: I needed an escape.

f: Are we over for good?

m: I didn't want it to end like this.

f: Or is it something deeper?

m: But I was scared...

f: He had seemed off recently...

m: Of what I might do...
Of the thoughts going through
my head...

f: I can't be just his 'friend'.

m: I don't want to be just friends.

f: We still have feelings for each other?

m: She told me she loses feelings
fast.

f: I can't wait around for him.

m: I told her I didn't expect her
to keep feelings for me.
I didn't want her to lose feelings...

f: He hadn't been acting himself.

m: But I didn't feel right...
About any of it.

f: Backing out of things we typically do...

m: I love her too much...
To risk hurting her worse than this breakup would.

f: Asking if I'm uncomfortable or regret things...

m: I didn't want to take advantage
of her.

f: Maybe he thinks...

m: So for now we must only remain
friends.

f: Oh my god.
Our world is so fucked.