Time To Close My Eyes & Rest... Poem by Amit Chubbah

My mind is mentally strong
but my heart keeps selling me out and stringing me along...

It's all fake, it's all lies,
Don't want to wake up, time to close my eyes
Leave me and let me rest
Why give me a heart? I want to rip it out of my chest

Please don't cry or be sad, celebrate instead
Hopefully there was one occasion I made you smile in your head
This boy is given up, never thought I ever say that
I wanted such simple things; too late now, can't turn back

My heart and body is so tired, I'm done
I just want to be at peace and at one
I feel now it's a good time for it to end
I think it's a good time for my soul to ascend
Did know better but I don't have the same outlook or view
To my family, it's none of your fault, you didn't have a clue

Don't blame anyone, I'm in a fit state of mind
Life been one hell of a lesson, one of a kind
Against the odds I always tried
But now I feel its time to rest and close my eye

Always showed people love; I guess I am the biggest fool
People always said don't show people too much love that's the number one rule
But that's not me and I can't change my ways
All I want now is to be lowered down into my grave

I thought everyone was the same, stupid me
Please forgive me; I'd be happy if all you say is R.I.P
Till we meet again one day, all I can say is bye
Time to lay down my head and close my eyes.


Amit Chubbah 21.04.2009