To Desist Or Exist Poem by sally brown

I want to die
but I want to travel.
I want to desist
but I want to be a Mother.
I want to stop
but I want to help people.
I want to perish
but I want to create.
I want to expire
but I want to swim in salt water.
I want to end
but I want to visit art galleries.
I want to terminate
but I want to keep on being a sister,
a daughter.
I want to conclude
but I want to witness sunsets.
I want to finish
but I want to chuckle,
I want to run,
I want to imagine,
inspire, grow, burn,
Love.
I want to die,
I just don’t know when.