To Stay Or To Go? That Is The Question Poem by Gaia Rose

Why are things so bloody hard! Decisions decisions to make,
I just give up! So bloody tired, confusions the feeling I hate!

I have my reasons to feel this way, but that doesn’t tell me what’s best,
Is my fate to leave, or suffer and stay? Feel like i'm being put to the test!

My wants and needs becoming so strong, control is something I lack,
How can feelings so right be something so wrong? Why can’t I leave and never look back?

A man in front of me giving he’s heart, but my heart no longer needs he’s,
Do I think of MY needs, rip this family apart? Or do I give this man what HE needs?

I just want the freedom that’s bursting inside, longing to do as I wish,
Trying to contain it, trying to hide. Why cant things be easier than this? !

I never expected to feel like I do, but now its here, which way to turn?
Do I stick with the old or move into the new? I guess this is a lesson to learn.

I just can’t go back to that mundane life! Challenges is what I now seek,
NO MORE just a mother, NO MORE just a wife! I’m using my bloody voice to now speak!

Cos i’m not JUST a mother! I’m not JUST a wife! I’m a woman who wants to be seen,
I feel i've gave others myself in this life, but now I feel its time life gave to me!

I don’t care what’s important I don’t care what is right! I just need some excitement once more!
So please my dear God, please give me a sign, hand me the keys and show me the door!