Torn Poem by Jacob Courtney

Torn I feel when it comes to thoughts of you.
Should I feel anger or happiness love or hate. You left
behind a void that can not be filled. A hole that
torments my very soul. You went on living life
with no thought of me or the pain that you left
me in. You filled the void in your heart knowing
that I could not do the same. Selfish I may seem
to you but the imprint you left on me how can I
not feel betrayed. Knowing that I trust no one you
helped only confirm that thought that belief. Am I
suppose to go on living life like nothing happened
just as you did. Please tell me so that I can make
some sort of sense of this hell that you left me in.
I beg of you to give me the secret that you apparently
know so well on how to let nothing hurt or bother
you. Do this so at least I may have one piece of
sanity back in my life. Still I will feel forever torn
when it comes to the thoughts of you.