Traveling In And Out Of Place Poem by James Darwin Smith II

I have traveled many miles
All in one place
Dreaming of the impossible
Becoming possible someday
Fantasizing about something
Perhaps coming this way
Stuck in myself
Wanting all out
Beyond anything
Crushing all doubt
Becoming something
Worth anything
In sudden spark
Upon an newfound energy
Lit up to smile
Smiles so gallantly
Full of beauty and delight


I hate rejection
For all the graves
It has dug within this heart
Many pains and frustrations
Feeling red in the dark
Only to become blue
In the black
Only to be tearing itself apart


Despite this agony
I do keep fighting on
To take a peek into these dreams
To make sure that they are still there
Fighting on and on
Against all and every last
Plead of my own despair


Hanging on strong
Battling on
Against all negativity
Working on a purpose
Towards limitless ventures
Into the dawn of greater possibilities
Upon endless visions that must be seized


Wondering and dreaming
Seeking some kind of purpose
Something real, something fresh
That makes everything worthwhile
In trying to do something different
In these feelings that cry to feel anew
Brand new


I have traveled many miles
Being stuck in one place
Seeing in the distance
Of things that make this heart
Feel all the more pain
Beating to cure itself
From all of this self-disdain
Digging deep within this whole
So I can finally explore
The beauty in everything
And even more
While striving to better myself
Each and every sing day
Towards my own escape
To a brand new and improved place
Even if I am still where I am
At this very time and fate


It was never about going away
But traveling on
Balancing inward
Onward, staying in place
With open arms
Reaching out
To something sacred
Forcing me
To go beyond every single thing


I want to kill
My self of all negativity
So I can finally feel fully alive
In the true form of traveling on
To a paradise anew
As this body forces out
Every bit of negativity
That has festered away
Far away, behind me
Lying in waste


I just want to travel
As far as I can
Even in one place
Giving me something
To take away the pain
Even if I have to stay
In my own patience of pace
It would surely
Have to be worth something
Even if not today
Another day
Somehow, someway


I just want to keep traveling on
While standing in one place


Will I ever be figured out?
At least a moment
Who knows, someday?


Who knows the future?
And it will eventually have to say
No one, nothing
It is all discombobulated
Stuck upon a thickened haze


I have traveled many miles
Now wishing to travel more
Going many different directions
So tired of standing in one place


Do these words mean anything?
If not at all


Why do you have to be so beautiful?
It hurts so badly loving you this way


I just want to go everything
So tired of being stuck in one place


Someday, I will be taken the right way

Till then I will dream dreams
Of many brand new days


If only looks
Looked away
Towards far away
Eyes peeking into this soul
Is that so much to ask for?


I just want to be something, someday


I have traveled many miles
All in one place
Dreams, take me away, far away
There is much more to life
Than I have ever experienced before
Wondering on like I have never wondered before


Here is to pacing myself out of pace
So where should I go from here?
Anywhere

Traveling on
Out of place

Where do we go from here?
Do you see me at all?

I am by myself
Is that a good thing?

Who really knows?