Unafraid Poem by Sugar Bear

All through life I’ve been skeptical
About which road I should follow
Either the one that’s long, and full of obstacles
Or the one that’s clear and takes me home
The clouds form above me here
So then the rain blends in with my tears
My inner voice speaks; making the decision clear
And that’s why I’m in fear

Out of site my mother cries
She knows the way I feel inside
Although she’s silent as a butterfly
I hear her every time

She knows that I wake up unafraid to die
Wishing inside this was my last sunrise
My last hello and my last goodbye
I’m ready to let go of time

And before I can pull that trigger, or suffocate
Out of the blue is my mother’s face
Teary eyed and telling me “I’m her life”
And that “I’m what kept her alive”

Usually I don’t care what happens now or then
Because I know I won’t be here in the end
But it’s my mother that keeps me strong
And gives me a back bone

Sometimes on the edge I feel
That dreams are never real
That I’ll always be tired of taking pills
To keep me well

So next time maybe I won’t swim back up
Or maybe I’ll get some luck
But I’m unafraid
And I know that’s a shame

Out of site my mother cries
She feels the way I feel inside
And although she hides
She hears me every time

We keep each other going and it’s sad
That our lives began to drag
And sometimes we just don’t care
If the end is near

But she’s my back, and I’m her own
We’ll use each other to keep us strong
And we both know
That someday we’ll both be gone

And that’s okay
Leave us unnamed
We both decided to live this way
But it's okay
Since neither of us are afraid