Unanswered Questions Poem by cynthia Routen

I keep on telling myself I need to forget
But every time I try I’m filled with regret.
I wonder if I could have saved you.
I wonder if there was more I could do.
Then I remember what you had said every time I said I loved you. You were supposed to be my guide in this world, you were supposed to protect me now I’m filled with pain and sorrow and unanswered questions I’m not soon to forget.
Questions without answers
Did you mean to hurt me?
Was this how you wanted it to be?
Did you ever love me?
Do you feel anything?
Can you feel the sting?
Is your heart as cold as you make it seem?
Are you ever going to be a true father to me?
Was everything you said a lie?
Why were you always the one to cause me to cry?
Are you blind to the truth or just refuse to see?
Why didn’t you believe me when I said you meant everything to me?
Was she really worth this or have you second thoughts?
You said you’d fallow me into the deepest depths of hell, but instead you left me locked away in this house resembling a prison cell. I tried so hard to make you see that all the pain I felt is what you caused in me. You made me cry and made me hate now its time you accept your fate. These questions need some answers and I won’t leave until I’m through. The only reasons I have these questions is all because of you. Flowing like a river that has no place to go, without a destination it’s destined to overflow. Exploding out of my mouth all the things I have wanted to say now I know I’ve lost control as I watch you run away. You’re a coward and a liar you hide when things get hard. You’re a thief and you don’t care who you hurt. Now do me a favor before you disappear don’t leave me with these unanswered questions or you’ll have more than life to fear.