Uncertian Poem by Heather Kemper

Each time you say I love you
my heart cries out believe!
He means it, he's not lying!
It's really meant for me.
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But then my head takes over
questioning your intent.
Is it just because it's easy
a habit too often said?
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I want to hope and trust this
believe again it's true.
That my world isn't crumbling
crushing all I knew.
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My nights are filled with nightmares
I awake alone and scared.
Will you take our children and leave me
alone without you there?
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I want to fight to scream
whatever!
If that's what it takes
to make you stay.
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To remind you what you promised
make you love me again one day!
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To show you what my heart sees
when I think of what you give.
The years of love and laughter
of just loving me like you did.
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The children that you gave me
the shelter you often became.
The arms I'd fall into crying
you'd always take away my pain.
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You believed when no one else did
and you opened up my heart.
What you gave there are no words for
and that's simply just the start.
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In your eyes I knew I'd found something
I'd been searching for all my life.
All the good I've had since
was all because you tried.
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So when I think of losing that
and everything that's left unsaid.
My heart screams and panics
I'm full of fear and dread.
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My world my dreams my everything
my ability to laugh not cry.
All I have is because of you
and because of you I try.
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So when you say I love you
I'm afraid now to hope that it's true.
I believed once before that you meant it
Now I just wish I knew.


September 9,2007