Uncomfortably Close Poem by Ann McKinley

Today I remembered why
I told myself that day I died
Why I would never fall for another living soul
This ache in my chest is unnerving
The feeling in my stomach is unclenching
I am not comfortable bearing my soul to another
And just throwing everything into nothing
I want to love and I want to be loved
But I don't want this empty longing feeling
That wearily accompanies
I do not like having another soul so close to mine
That despite physical distance
You are the most racing thought in my mind
Why, when I know I just don't have the time?
I know in the end, this won't be how we want it
And one of us will continue to flaunt it
All the sorrow and despair
That our love could not capture
I call you boo
You call me baby
But at the end of the day I try not to let it phase me
I know you
And you know me
And baby what if this is all just make believe?
I know your soul
You know mine
I just don't want to get left behind