Undo... Poem by Nestor David Armas

Who will mourn me
When I'm dead? None that I can see
Though even in throes of death
I will mourn the loss of you until my last breath,
Thoughts on the ocean currents
Wash back to shore, memories like dents
Of when I was next to you
So blue; so blue
I am thinking of no one else but you, the one the only
Woman in my life to break the soul in me,
Did you lie? Did you deceive me? Even if a farse
I am man enough to admit defeat, drive my own hearse
I will, writing my obituary as I speak
I saw the world next to you from the highest peak,
But now I won't come down
p*ss this what I have reaped? I am the most obvious clown
Laughing through the tears
Years upon years,
No sadder would I be than the moment
You were no longer beside me, now endless torment,
What is life, what is purpose
Without you to share it all with, because
I woke when I met you though I fell asleep
Caught in the dream coming true, but now I am deep
In regret, reluctantly headed forward still
No other direction like a sleeping pill,
Would I undo?
Yes, a thousand times yes, just to be once more next to you.

(06/29/2012)