Unknown 7 Poem by Theresa Goertz

i've always been the odd one out
in almost everything.
i've never found a crowd that i've actually belonged to.
so therefore i'm left out of a lot of things.
i'm even left out of things when it comes to my own family,
my cousins.
i've already gotten used to
not being told anything
(such as secrets)
and being exluded
from many things.
but i wanted
to be part of this
badly.
my cousins were planning
to go to skate key
(a skating rink)
and i love
anything to do with
skating or dancing
so i asked if i could go with them
and they said sure.
i then went
to get my skates
and when i returned
they weren't there anymore.
but then
i was already used to it,
so i wasn't hurt.
instead i sat down and watched TV
and read a book.
then i ate food.
and waited
until they came back at around 7pm
and stared at them all
for at least five minutes
and
left.