Victory? Poem by Saptarshi Banerjee

Why did you love me so much
An option you had to not love
And desperate to cry that today I am
Realise I that my loyalty was a sham.

I cribbed, I battled
With my own disloyal self
Searched for the truth I so much
Glorified was my failure as much
Victory we sought
But wasn't ours to have

An option to think beyond my evil self
In search
I plundered my own heart's shelf
Not a book, Not a chapter on your name
Yes it is a shame

But did I ever deny that?
Did I ever disagree?
That one day I would fail your love
One day, from you, I will set myself free.