Rambling wanderings of a fevered mind,
in search of a starburn shine…
I stood by the entrance of the enchanting greens,
Only to find emptiness within,
the fishes swam by with broken fins,
the children ran wild yet made no din…
My fire has burnt out, I've lost all feelings,
hollowed out of hopes and innocent dreamings…
I wish a part of me knew the depths of my heart,
So that I can move on with my complicated life.
My hopes and dreams fades away it seems,
till the surrounding darkness was awaken
by a spark of light that redeems
this shattered and empty soul
warming my heart out of it's cold…
An angel appeared out of the sky so gold
clearing my mind out of the hatred so old
in an instance I did an action so bold
I could almost hear the tattooing of drum rolls
as I took the first step ahead, the picture unfolds
The anger kept within imploded as the story was told…
Like a lightning bolt, happiness was struck into me
with a flash of sudden realisation into the truth of beauty
In your eyes I see the missing pieces of me,
and in your scars lies your true beauty…
A feather from your wing floats down to me
a gift in departure to mark your memory
the time we've spent I keep with me
to be asking more, I feel so unworthy…
Not wanting to hope
the results might be upsetting,
can't help but to wish
for what my heart is not getting,
no more do I want to be burnt out this way,
clawing at the walls looking for an escape
Down on my knees I hope and I pray
"Dear God, please, let this not be my fate"…
I took a chance and I hoped for the best
but the results were not what I expected
Ignorant to what might simply be a test,
my actions simply made things complicated…
A choice to be made to determine my fate,
a struggle of reasons between my heart and my head…
Undeserving of that ray of light,
let me succumb to the darkness around me
In this safe box, my heart feels just right
maybe, only then it would be free…
But is this security that I feel, real,
when I have already been gifted so much more?
And knowing that what I have been given is still
there, waiting to be reclaimed as mine, again, once more…
I looked.
I touched.
I felt.
I smiled.
And I knew…
this is it.
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