Waiting It Out Poem by Marijke McKinney

Started out special and ended out rotten
And all I can say is it's my fault
If I was worthy
I wouldn't drive home so doubtful
And lonely
Started out special and ended out rotten
First week of caring
Spread me around your finger
Make me plead and tug your skin
For an ounce of such kindness
Hidden holes in this crystal lake
Some say i got it backwards
But it's always this hard
Saying mean things in a playful manner
Still has the same definition to my ears
And boy, it makes you scratch your insides
Subtle and finally noticeable when scabs appear
Giving you all now but you won't take
Waiting it out like a boy with no date
For you, I'm going to curl and hide.
So visible I was, never good enough for you guys.
You wanted it, you did
Giving you all now but you won't take
Waiting it out like a boy with no date
You wanted it, but why no more kid?