Was It Worth It? Poem by Sexaginta Prista

It was long ago, when I was born
as it was everybody else.
Mom told me, I was crying a lot.
Others liked it, I guess?
In my way, I was trying to impress.

When I was growing up,
at the school I made an effort to be the best
with knowledge, sports and all the rest.
Others liked it, I guess?
In my way, I was trying to impress.

When I was a teenager
I followed fashion, was well dressed,
had cool friends, made up with hot girls.
Others liked it, I guess?
In my way, I was trying to impress.

When I was in the college, I met a girl.
It was about time to nest.
Got a cheap ring, flowers and asked. She said yes.
Others liked it, I guess?
In my way, I was trying to impress.

When I worked for this company,
there were long hours, low pay and lots of stress.
I put on a brave face, pretending to be happy.
Others liked it, I guess?
In my way, I was trying to impress.

When I got older with kids in the college,
paid mortgage, some money in the bank, I was blessed.
The wife and I rented a RV, traveled around, showing off.
Others liked it, I guess?
In my way, I was trying to impress.

Now, who knows how long I have left…
All my life I was trying to impress
following other's rules and standards,
but that is the life. I guess?
I was just trying to impress.

Yes, I understand. I was like any other guy.
Looking back, I should have done it in a different way.
I wonder, what the others would have said:
"Poor guy, he lost his way". I guess?

Don't get me wrong, this is not a drama.
Maybe I should knee and pray,
so when and if I come again next life,
I would have it my way.