What A Muse Meant Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Her eyes glisten
As she stares into the endless ocean
Shining peeking waters
Into a warming welcome
Of feeling right back at home


Radiant lover she is
Kissing the air with her skin
Dreaming of a paradise
That could be as magical
As this very moment has become


From the distance I look in
Dwelling in a moments stare
Telescope eyes convalescing
This heart for which has too many
Hopeless stories to tell


Too much pride in seclusion
Hiding self in shame
If anything were to happen
What price would I have to pay?
Have I led myself far too much astray?


Never want to stare too long
Been labeled too crazy too be sane
So why would she think otherwise?
As I am more afraid of her being afraid of me


She is the Ocean Queen
I just a Jester in remorse
Loving her sirens she has conjured from the sea
To new hope from the endless waters beyond


They all sing in unison
In another dimension I wish I lived


Beautiful music made
By the hearts of their own love within


I feel so much shame
For hiding and staring on
But this beauty is such magic to behold
From a creatures perspective I confess
I myself would never be good enough


Dreaming on
Maybe too much
All just a metaphor of feelings
Dreams that I made all up
Conjuring things
Only when reality came in and took it all away


Even in the fantasy world
Reality can sink ones dreams
As the voices of criticism
Cuts through the heart
Stabbing it inch from inch from inch


But in this I keep fighting on
Something someday will surely give
The falsehoods will disappear
And the scams will die
This time for good


Her eyes glisten in this mind
Slowly giving this heart much more trust
What shall become of this metaphor?
Perhaps lessons of how to live life
To furthest of its most


And now I ponder on
Thinking of ways to be stronger
Living life more risky
Having the guile
In the harmless reign of love


She was my spirit guide all along
Giving guidance and love
Yet, staying far away from me
So I could dictate my own ways
Of how I lived my life as a whole



And now I have become wiser
Knowing the true value of life
Taking every moment as lessons
To better myself each and everyday
I live this life alone



So how will my future go?
I never want to know
The present is something
I should cherish more than I have ever cherished before



My eyes glisten
To the epiphany she has bestowed
Giving these hopes and dreams a new beginning
To something I could of never comprehended before


Was she in my heart all along?

Was she always my muse?

There is no value no explanation
Of how much this muse could mean
As I ponder on
Which path will be open for me?


What has this muse meant all along?
I guess that for time to be achieved


The ocean is my life
And my heart is a boat full of love
Now it is time to travel on
Further than I have ever been before


So many possibilities
What will be next for me?
I deserve more
To this life more than I ever knew before


Time to set sail and believe!
Now I know
This muse was more than just a metaphor
This I now know for sure!

No more time to drown again
As I shall always sail on the waters
Celebrating what this muse has truly meant to be


Onward!
I go!