What Can I Do? ? Poem by devadyuti nag

Escaping from the truth called reality,
Have found shelter in the hands of fantasy,
Do not know, what uncertainty lies ahead,
Something hammers this crazy head.
As time goes by,
All I can think of is you
In my memory,
In my heart, your name engraved.

Not able to touch you,
You are beyond my grasp,
Emptiness, is what i have in my clasp,
It is strange that you are not so far,
But away from my sight you really are,

Happiness is my false façade,
The killing sadness is what I hide,
Can’t stop but think of you everyday,
It turns out I am already in disarray.
Your voice is like a gentle whisper,
Your eyes always made me wonder,
'Are you the graceful goddess in my life? '
Your smile, gave me the answer.

I embrace invisibility,
I have this unnoticed agility,
To run from reality...
Invaded by hollowness,
Torn between past and future,
I know, it's madness.

Sometimes I think you are a mirage, an illusion,
But, I love you,
You always have my devotion,
My mind creating walls of confusion,
Trying hard to break down these walls,
But everything i live for,
Turns out to be false....