What Do I Do Poem by Heather Kemper

What do I do
how do I make you see?
I was lost and I was broken
before you started loving me.

Because of you I am better
not perfect in any way.
See I would wake up crying
because I was alive another day.

I don't sit before the mirror
with a knife open in my hand.
Trying to find a reason
to believe in who I am.

So much of that has changed
because of what you say.
Because of the way you saw me
but was the price too high to pay?

I don't make you happy
I haven't for so long.
I am panicked and I am desperate
most often though I'm wrong.

Is the only answer
to say good-bye and walk away?
Is that the right thing for you
so your heart no longer pays?

Knowing that if I'm gone
I don't call or come around.
I'll disappear from your heart forever
lost I won't be found.

So here I am again
broken beyond repair.
You've changed the way you see me
I make it too hard for you to care.

I know you don't believe me
you don't think that I still try.
You think I never want you
do you only think I lie?

When I make an effort
to show you what you mean.
How much I truly want you
the way I want you in my dreams.

I fail to make you see it
make you believe that it is real.
I walk away again the failure
I guess I always will.

So if I really love you
the way it screams inside my soul.
Then answer to this question,
it seems is to walk away and let you go.