What I Want Poem by Crystal K

This is my first poem in this i asked some questions about this world and tried to show some of my insecurities, that somewhere everyone has sometimes, for example if we go to a new place, in a different kind of atmosphere some people just tell us about the bad person at that place or in that atmosphere and tell us not to trust them but, their identity is also questionable. Line to line explanation: 1st para is as exactly as it means ' i don't know what i want or what I feel i just know that I am a human being '(i am confused and scared about should I go out or should I stay in my timid world) 2nd para: i can't live under water but I can't live without the water (i cannot live in my timid world (my water) it is suffocating under here but I also cannot get out of it because of my insecurities) 3rd para: i am habitate of my own timid world but I want to go out and explore other worlds (i wanna be confident, i wanna be savage but, i don't know how cause i have always been inferior to all those things) 4rt para: they say humans aren't trustworthy but they are humans as well aren't they trustworthy (in our india when someone does something wrong or makes a mistake they throw sarcasm at them that people aren't trustworthy these days but, they forget they are peoples as well) 5th para: as long as I think there's only one thing I can see this world is a tragedy (no matter how hard I think I come to only one conclusion that this world is out of my understanding) 6th para is just similar to 1st para it is only written to balance the poem