What If She Poem by Antonio Perez

If she ever comes back,
shall i know it is true,
that the days which where lost,
are know all but renewed.

If she ever comes back,
will they cease to say i am crazy,
only to come back and stare,
and just simply hail me.

If she ever comes back,
will it be out of pure surprise,
or will it be like before,
mistakes in her eyes.

if she ever comes back,
will i feel it to be love,
or will it die down like before
only to be lost like it once was.

if she ever comes back,
will the days last forever,
or will they just fade away,
like those nights without each other.

if she ever comes back,
will it be here or away,
in a different lost land,
or at home where we will stay.

and what if it is all but meant to be,
only time, and hope can determine the rest,
and i have nothing to worry bout except for the present.

and what if it is all but horrible speculation,
only time lost and ideas that where never to be,
and everyone else was right to call me crazy.

and what if out of it all i have no clue, or idea what awaits,
only voices in my mind and heart, ghosts...
that call your name....

and what if..... all this is nothing but words....
nothing but a faith and hope,
that is completely absurd.

what if........ what if, is the problem itself
nothing but doubt implanted in ones mind
on a future ones self can develop.

then the beauty of it all would not be what if...
but simply what one believes to keep,
in the stars at night and in those cherished dreams.

and what if for now she is not here,
and many nights are spent teared.

well... one most stay strong,
realize that love is strong then fear.

and all those what ifs,
are nothing but time lost from you... my dear.