What Is This Feeling? Poem by Kelsey Decker

what is this I'm feeling
Is this a dream or is it real
These emotions that I feel

There I wait everyday
Just for you to come around
Hoping to get to speak to you

Dare I say I find you attractive
Without you knowing it
For your only someone I just met

I hide behind a mask
To sheild these emotions
So you can't see how I feel

I want to know you..
Yet I don't know how to ask
Without getting lost in these emotions
That you have awaken in me

The way you make me smile
Way you make me laugh
Leaves my days 1000 times better
With a glowing light
Upon the smile you bring to my face

I want to tell you
Tell you I like you alot
But I fear you may not feel same
For my heart can only race

When I try to speak
Suddenly I become stumbled
Unable to say what I want to say
Only stutters speak out instead

Boy you have me stumbling
Stuttering my words
Something I've never done
It's all so new

These thoughts that cloud my mind
Go away in a instant flight
When you ask what's wrong

You see through my mask
You see my pain,
You see my ache,
You see my Darkness
From scars of my past

Instantly I try to avoid
No one ever cared before
So what is different this time
For me to open up so easy

I've fallen knee deep
In my own emotions once again
Told you my past, my pain,my sorrows
Even my broken pieces

You still chose me
Fell for me in a instant
Even knowing my scars

What are these emotions
That of such joy
Ones I haven't seen in a while
Running through my mind

You now have my heart
As that I have yours
My only request
Love me as I am.