What Is This Feeling I Feel? Poem by Laura Rodriguez

How can someone
who used to make a smile on my lips
bring such sadness to my heart?
How can someone
who used to bring out the best in me
only brings out the worse in me?
What is this feeling I feel?
Why does this feeling exist?
How can someone so important to me
mean so little?
How can someone makes me feel
so happy yet so sad at the same time?
If this is love,
then I want to cut out my own heart,
so I can feel no more.