What Lays Behind Me.. Poem by ana cristina perez

“What lays behind me”
It all started because of a conversation we had
It was so cold
And I didn’t feel okay
He called me lazy
Said I was good for nothing
And that I should be dead
And said I wasn’t perfect
Wished for me to be killed
And made me mad
He’d took things too far
I felt this anger for him so deep in me
He would not stop messing with me
So I felt that I had to stop this
So I screamed at him
I couldn’t help him any more
I looked around
See the hot coffee laying in the stove
I grabbed it and purposely
threw it on his face
He’d stood up and screamed at me
But I didn’t care
And he hit me one twice and three times
But I didn’t cry
I ran to my room
And looked back
I saw that he was after me
And when he got me
He hit me one more time
I felt his hand dropp to my back with this huge strength
I felt like my blood had stopped running through my body
My veins turned purple
And my eyes became watery
The look in his eyes made me be afraid
Now you have discovered the other side of me
You might always see me with a smile at my face
But if you’d lived with me
You’d see a different face
What lays behind this smile
Is more then you could imagine
What lays behind my shirt
Are the bruises of the pain
And what lays behind me
Is a life in the dark….
By: Ana Cristina Perez