What Now? Poem by james d nall,jr

For many long years
Searching through my tears
Finally I did find
The son that occupied my time

Questions I always had
Now, Feeling so bad
I can't remember a one
That I had for my son

Seems it doesn't matter
For the tears no longer splatter
Falling from my red eyes
All at once, I do realize

No matter how very pissed
At all the events I missed
Now, He's in my life
Bringing to an end, years of strife

Now What?