Whats Up And What Went Down Poem by chelsi Ruffing

I'm on the go once again to hide
Can you see me go on this ride?
I make it to the very top and have it all
Then all of the sudden I lost it all and fall
I get so close and yet so far
Its like I'm running away in that car
I went from loving and thankful
To mean and hateful
Poeple seem to always ask why
But not a one of them know I cry
See I always have to pretend
I know were it began but I dont know where it will end
Tell me something god will there always be this pain?
Will I be able to stand here and scream in the rain?
Was my life just a bad dream
Or is this real and I can't just scream
Dear god if this is just my living nightmare
Wake me up so my heart won't tare